Wednesday, April 10, 2013

I Don't Give A Crap About The Numbers!

Photo by: Rbbaird


I don't give a crap about the numbers!  I say that with the utmost respect to you all. 


The Post that started it all

The last post that I wrote was called The Struggle and it was about the battle between prediction versus fantasy - present versus the future and just how detrimental that can be to your psyche. 

I put a snippet up on Monday morning, since I was moving my post days to Wednesdays and didn't want to leave folks hanging.  I published the full post on Wednesday morning and I did my regular marketing which included posting to Facebook, Twitter, Google Plus, and Pinterest


Where the problem began
Thursday afternoon, I checked my stats and noticed that it didn't get much of a response.  Even the snippet received more hits than the full post.  

I tweeted about the post again.  I'd wait for a while, then I checked my stats.  No change. I did a little bit more marketing later in the evening. Then I checked my stats again. No change. 

I felt myself getting anxious, nervous, and even sad.  I started to feel a little sorry for myself.  On one hand I thought, well you know every post you write isn't going to be a hit.  And just because you're not seeing any comments and no one has shared it doesn't mean that people didn't like it.   On the other hand I thought, the lack of change in the stats must mean that nobody liked this post

That little voice came in loud as ever.  It began to taunt me.  Your writing sucks!  Bla bla bla!  That was when I got angry.  Enough!  What are you feeling bad about?  You have a number of people who have liked your page.  You've got a good number of people who have been completely and utterly supportive.  People have commented.  People have shared.  Let's not get crazy about some stupid numbers.  *cue the music*  Epiphany!!

My New Manifesto

I've decided that I don't give a crap about the numbers and you shouldn't care either. 

The numbers don't mean anything.  They are just numbers.  The numbers don't mean that people have not read and enjoyed the posts.  The numbers don't mean that people don't care.  The numbers have nothing to do with the quality of the writing, nor do the numbers validate me or the purpose for this blog.  


The numbers don't mean anything...unless you give them meaning.  By constantly checking and comparing the numbers to others, I lost sight of the mission of this blog.   


I am a great writer.  I put my heart into the things that I write here. I share more than I really feel comfortable sharing.  I do battle with my ego every time I get ready to post. 


My mouse hovers over the Publish button, while a feeling of anxiety and nervousness wash over me.  What if I offend someone?  What if I hurt or upset someone who knows me?  What if I exposed too much? What will others think? 


All of that runs through my head every single time I post.  Then I hear a little whisper within me that says, "This isn't about you.  There is someone out there who desperately needs to read what it is that you have to say.  They need to know that they aren't alone.  They need to see that there is a place for them to go.  By thinking these thoughts, holding back your words, and asking these questions, you are being selfish.  Publish the damn post."  


Then I take a deep breath and press the button.  This is how it goes, especially with my more personal posts in which I put myself out there.  This is why when I don't get very much feedback, I worry, then I start to internalize.  For a moment, I forget why I do this. 

Final Message

There's a message in everything, and I'm grateful for seeing this in a different way.   This occurrence has taught me, or should I say reminded, me why I do this.  It's not about the numbers.  It's not about monetizing and making money.  I write to touch and help people, whether they respond, share, comment, like, pin, or retweet or not.  It's not about me and my ego. 

From this point forward, I'm done putting so much value into the numbers.  They don't define my purpose or who I am. 

This lesson was definitely a blessing to learn. Thank you guys so much for all of your support whether it's through word, call, and whether I see it or not. I appreciate every single one of you.


Photo credit lurve: Photo by Rbbaird

9 comments:

  1. Awesome post. I can relate in a way via my weightloss. I had to stop weighing myself b/c the numbers started to consume me. Had to let that go. Since then, my mental state has been positive. You're doing well girlie. Keep up the great work.

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    1. You're right! This post can be applied to many numbers: weight, stats, bank account, number of "friends" on Facebook, number of expensive things that you own, etc. By letting it go and no longer obsessing, we have a better chance of attracting those things to us naturally and without forcing it. Thanks!!

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  2. So incredibly true when it comes to blogging. I try NOT to check my numbers 2-3x a day, but it's so hard.

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    1. It really is, but you have to stop for sanity's sake. :-)

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  3. Its so hard to say that numbers don't matter, when you have so many bloggers, companies and brands saying that they do. I've seen so many "experts' saying "write for you, not the numbers" but then turn around and say that the numbers matter if you want to create a business and eventually get recognized for your writing. I just get so tired of the hypocrisy.

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    1. Exactly Amiyrah! The thing is, quality content will bring people. It may not be exactly when you want them to come, but they'll be there at some point. When they show up, you have great posts that will keep them busy reading and a great "New Here" page that will point them to those great posts just to get them started. ;-)

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  4. I love this post. I feel the same way. It is not so much that the numbers don't matter to me, it is more about am I publishing stuff that I know can help someone. If all my posts are ones that I feel has merit and value then I trust it will get seen. Maybe not immediately but it will. So it is about waiting and doing other things but never, about quitting or doubt myself. That is the damaging attitude I cannot let in. Thanks for sharing this, I really enjoyed it and keep on publishing cause this one sure hit home for me.

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    1. Thank you! This is it exactly! I am glad that the post resonated with you!

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  5. This makes me feel so much better. I believe all bloggers/writers relate in some way or the others. Thank you for you bravery and thank you for being You and telling it like it is. :)

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