Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Diary of an Emotional Eater - Date: February 6, 2013

Photo by Heather & TIm
Date: February 6, 2013 – 11:39 p.m. 

I just gave my very first webinar presentation tonight.  I feel so... something.  My body is aflame with nervous energy.  Every nerve is tingling.  I'm a ball of energy.  So much so that I'm bouncing off of the walls.  

I can't go to sleep.  Everything in me is burning.  I feel really good right now.  I feel proud.  I feel relieved.  I feel excited.  And surprisingly… I want a cookie. 

I don't know how to describe exactly what I'm feeling.  It is a happy feeling.  It is light.  It is also confusing.  

As good as this feeling feels, I don't know that I want to feel these feelings.  I feel uncomfortable.  I feel like I've completely stepped outside of my comfort zone.  

And all I want to do right now is eat those last Girl Scout cookies.

I'm not hungry.  I had a pretty full dinner.  It is 15 minutes to midnight, I'm not hungry.  And I really don't want to eat.  I don't feel full, but I also don't feel like I'm starving. 

I feel satisfied. And yet, here I am thinking about those damn cookies. 

I don't want to feel this, whatever this is. And by eating a cookie or two or more, I'm doing nothing but stopping myself from feeling this. 

I'm not going to have the cookie.  I'm going to be present and feel how I feel.  

I want to allow myself to feel.   Feel the excitement.  Feel the heightened pulse.  Feel elated that I did it.  

I'm going to experience this feeling.  I'm going to swim in it until my fingertips look like prunes.  

I'll let it flow through me until I come down and finally go to sleep.  

That sounds so much better than stuffing myself with cookies.  I think that I'm taking the first step...

I hope that you guys enjoyed this week's post.  Let me know in the comments what you thought. :-)  If you haven't already, read the post that started it off: Diary of an Emotional Eater.  

Have a safe and happy 4th of July everyone and I'll see you back here with a brand new post on July 17th!!

Photo credit lurve: Photo by Heather & Tim


  1. I love the transparency of this site and this article. Although I don't share the same struggle, I have challenges of my ow n that these feelings fit perfectly into.


  2. I am a huge emotional eater as well. I struggle with it big time! I could so relate to this post on so many levels. It's nice to see you being so transparent with your feelings concerning the struggle of it all.

  3. Great post. You've explained the feeling I get late at night when I just have to have a snack. When I can't figure out if I'm really hungry or just... in the middle of some feeling or anxiety. It's good to see myself in your words 'cause that means I doing the self-reflective work. Congrats on the webinar and on not eating the cookie!

  4. First, congrats on stepping out of your comfort zone, the mere thought of that would make many run for the hills (self included). I loved that you recognized what you were experiencing, for me that is half the battle.

    Thank you for sharing :)